none of this is really relevant anymore

im taking a break from this.

it's home now

i have this new fascination with cooking. It's all i want to do now

i made garlic chicken with white rice sunday
monday i made orange chicken and had potatoes, bell peppers, and onions mixed with some seasoning
this morning was eggs and papitas ( a Mexican style of seasoning sliced potatoes) and banana pancakes
tonight is bbq chicken with some assorted vegetables.

lol this is so not interesting sorry.

my roommate moved in and i love absolutely love her, this year should be a blast.

ahhh im still sick this is getting old.

:/

i want to play tennis dangit

im feeling betttter!!!!! wooo

and i completely re furnished my living room hah because i felt it would look better with something else i had in mind. its not done yet though

oh and i have a bf that takes care of me :D

finallly you asked joe ;]

it sucks being hyper mentally and sick physically shoot thats the worst combination.

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I spent yesterday with my mom and unfortunately found out the hard way that i had the stomach flu, but other than that i reallly enjoyed spending time with her!
Today hopefully ill get to see my best friend justin!!

venice

so this boy brought me a bouquet of daisies to my door, took me to get my favorite ice cream then surprised me with a jazz concert at the redlands bowl and then a few days later takes me to venice and santa monica. I think i should keep him. :]

ah

darling, you make me nervous.

finally

i hate being a naturally indecisive person but i finally now know what i want.

things are still a mess.

I moved in and im having a blast:]
It all seems too good to be true.
I wouldnt want my life any other way right now

beach

oh and this is one of my best friends Laura, she had this picture and i thought it was adorable.

new

To be completely honest it's kind of a weird time for me. Everyone keeps asking if im excited to move out, anxious or nervous, and i am, but a word rarely used or asked for that matter is upset. Now i'm not wondering why the word isnt used, because this is something i have wanted for so long. I keep myself up at night thinking just how im going to decorate my apartment , or the kind of gatherings and other festivities im going to have. Its freedom. It's me on my own, with myself held fully responsible. However, scared isnt the word or feeling that comes to mind. I'm sitting in my room ive spent hours emptying out, going through dusty drawers and forgotten spaces sorting out my things, ... making executive decisions on just what to part with, and as this room has been trampled through, and torn apart. It's now empty. It's what ive spent years putting together and its alll taken out.

Its now that the room evokes that word. I'm sad. Lame word... yes. But im sad. Its not that im going far. Its that im not living where i have for years or having my mom across the hall. Its not being in this room.

It's just really different

p.a.i.n.t

i decided on being productive today so i took out my bedroom furniture, moved it outside, bought some black paint, and painted my dresser and desk. It's all set and ready to go for tuesday. And might i add painting is a fun little ordeal.

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i can't forget.