"Put your hand on your heart"
"The heart uselessly open to 3 words, which is too little"
"He is punished by place, by scene,by all that holds all he has found, this pavement, the silent symbols."
-George Oppen

" you're only young once
you want a new life
you want a new chance
you want another dance
you just want to do somethin good for someone."

"You are the best. You are the worst. You are average.Your love is a part of you.You try to give
it away because you cannot bear its radiance,but you cannot separate it from yourself.To understand your fellow humans,you must understand why you give them your love.You must realize that hate is but a crime-ridden subdivision of love.You must reclaim what you never lost.You must take leave of your sanity,and yet be fully responsible for your actions."

I actually liked you. Does that mean anything?

I'm so tired of people messing around.
Stop saying shit you dont mean.

for a while ive been tampering with different ideas for my future, i know i ultimately wanted to teach but having such a fixed lifestyle on the contrary didnt sound as appealing as i had hoped. So when rummaging through ideas i came up with this:



get my teaching credentials so i can teach elementary school

start teaching

go back to school to get my masters and possibly phd in communications or something

(still dont really know this one yet)

study abroad in Greece, Italy, Spain, Ireland, France, India, Costa Rica, and England while getting my degree and possibly teach english to little kids while in the other countries ( so i can have some money to survive)

and either i stay in one of those countries or i come back to be a professor.



You know that whole " you learn about yourself as you get older" saying well this is what ive come to understand about myself settling down is a hard concept for me. Now dont get me wrong having a family is great, and i want one but i dont want to stay in one place all the time. As everyone says there is so much to see and i dont want to limit myself. Ideally i would like to go all over the world. ah im restless.

You learn a lot about yourself moving out. You learn your boundaries, what you stand for, where you fit in and most definitely where you dont. You learn what people are about how little you should trust them. It makes you grow up in a matter of weeks. Its you on your own with no one to cry to. It's a lot of responsibility and a lot of freedom. You come to know just how to manage your time and what life is really like. Granite i have more to learn and im open to that, this experience is like no other, and im taking every bit of it in.

literally everything has changed, i love it.

woo

things are coming together!