hats off

1. finals week is coming up
2. journalism in class issue to write for
3. teaching preschool
4. work
5. school blood drive
6. scholarships awards night
7. csusb registration and orientation
8. apartment hunting
9. get a 2nd job
10. senior rally
11. student council installation dinner
12. grad night
13. grad practice
14. senior breakfast
15. GRADUATE


It's weird, I feel like im going through the motions but im not living.
There is so much to do.

after a night of hell

My house got broken into last night and words will never be able to truly describe how terrified and awful it was. To make matters worse, I was in the house when they tried to. So going off of my 3 hours of sleep, Meredith and I decided to take a bit of a break by going to Pink Berry today. Sugar helps everything. ;]

husband-to-be

He makes me short of breath

"I want one of those"

My friend Sara got married yesterday,and it was honestly so surreal. I've got to say though that weddings are a blast-the ceremony, reception, food, friends, I love it.

speaks for itself

I can't remember what is wrong
I've been happy now for way too long
and oh, we got a lot more to go
I put a trash can by the road
and filled it up just to lighten my load
but oh, I got no where to go

someone alone fell asleep by the phone
waiting like a dog for a bone
how can it be that a fish in the sea
could feel like it's completely alone?
the world may never know

I know it hurt you, 'cause you cried
I know it killed you, but nobody died
and oh, the city ain't nothin but show
I found a needle in the hay
I found the sunshine at the end of the day
and oh, I found a pearl in the snow

someone alone fell asleep by the phone
waiting like a dog for a bone
how can it be that a fish in the sea
could feel like it's completely alone?
the world may never know.

-Dr. Dog

addicts

Redlands.
Pilates.
Bikes.
Green tea.
Casual Conversations.
House hunting.
Victorian homes.
Uphill and down.
Sunset.
Sleep.

These days define.

5/18/08

Matt Costa and Delta Spirit concert- by far the best time i've had this year.

5 more weeks

stay focused.


this is starting to become a problem.

9:00am

Tomorrow morning my friends and I are going Jacobe's house to make some breakfast. :]
My favorite meal of the day with my favorite people.

Ha see i'm a good cook.
(i'm the one with the barney shirt on the very right haha)

What's in the air

It feels like everything is so out of touch. What I once thought possible, isn't. The people I thought were there for me, weren't. It's crazy to think that what we deem as definite often times falls through. Seeing matters in an optimistic way has been proving to be rather disappointing and it's making me question whether or not I should actually count on things. I'm not all so sure where i'm suppose to go or where I even fit in. It's one big game of chance- I feel like i'm up in the air waiting to see where I fall.
However, the decisions I make now are going to and are determining my future. What I chose will change it drastically. How do you know which is right? Oh my, these sort of thoughts drive me insane.

"So glad to meet you"

Favorite.
Elliot Smith- Angeles

Someone's always coming around here trailing some new kill
says I seen your picture on a hundred dollar bill
and what's a game of chance to you, to him is one of real skill
so glad to meet you, Angeles

picking up the ticket shows there's money to be made
go on and lose the gamble that's the history of the trade
you add up all the cards left to play to zero
and sign up with evil, Angeles

don't start me trying now
'cause I'm all over it, Angeles

I could make you satisfied in everything you do
all your secret wishes could right now be coming true
and be forever with my poison arms around you
no one's gonna fool around with us
no one's gonna fool around with us
so glad to meet you, Angeles

Family

words can't describe

Time

Change has never been an easy thing for me to cope with, actually it has been one of my biggest fears. So, in respect to this overwhelming fear and anxiety, being even five minutes away from friends and family was simply out of the question. The idea would receive nothing more than a few seconds of thought or consideration. Leaving what I have always known, starting over, and god forbid making new friends was outrageous. Changing seats in class threw me off, let alone moving. Nope.
Something changed though, going some place else, starting over, it all suddenly sounded ideal. I'm finally ready to stop living such a fixed and planned out life. I want to do something I'm deathly afraid of, and make it the best experience possible.

Its o.k

I can't please you.
I can't always be what you want.
I'm sorry.