It doesn't really need a name

I like the way things are turning out. Life has switched its course, and im content.

On a side note
Lots of sushi and tons of green tea (from the coffee bean) seem to be traversing through my mind lately.

ah

i think i like him :/
liking people can be so inconvenient

that time

Fin

Senior breakfast
Grad Night on the Yacht
Graduation Practice
Graduation...
the chaos has subsided.
It's all one big blur, i actually ended up speaking at graduation leading everyone in the pledge of allegiance ahhh i have honestly had the time of my life.

mmmm mm

I am becoming my own person, no longer do people or my surroundings dictate who i am or who ill become. I am pleased with where i am at and what lies ahead. Things are starting to work out nicely, and I've learned that a positive attitude can honestly do wonders.

well

This could very well be because i just worked 10-2 at Serenity and 3-11:30 at Trader Joes but things dont feel right. I'm about to graduate and all im doing is working. I dont have any time for friends, for enjoying my last weeks of high school and the time of year where friends get "closer" heh that's been a joke. I feel like ive lost touch of who i am and what life is really about. I need the money so i have to work but i dont know...is putting that much on your plate just for money worth it? Is that what is going to make me look back and smile? I LOVE my job dont get me wrong but school and TWO jobs is getting wearing. I want my life back.

p.s.

i miss my best friend Meredith

J.O.B

Got the job at Trader Joes and im really anxious to start.
Should be a good time.

arch support

walk walk walk walk walk
that's what i did with my lovely friend today in redlands


p.s if anyone is interested in moving to an apartment in redlands aug 5th message me

"one day you will wake up, breathe, and say i'm okay"

I don't know how to really start this, and im not in much of a mood to care too much. This year has been insane and I've truly underestimated the change that can take place within a year. You come to expect you will grasp some new concepts, maybe mature a bit, and most obviously, experience what many refer to it as 'a taste of the real world.' I didn't come to expect i would lose people in my life or come to a point where I don't need to depend on people for my source of happiness. It's hard to admit, but i wasn't okay with who i was. I relied on people to make me feel loved, or important. At the time it was working out okay, however there came a time when those people i 'counted' on were gone. I had to make myself happy, and believe i didnt need anyone (except for family :]) It was a harsh reality and as crazy as it sounds it took 6 months. I had my highs and lows but each day thankfully got better.I learned being alone is okay. God can be an amazing best friend, and Moms are the ultimate healers. I spent my time enjoying life, meeting tons of new people, opening up, and not being so afraid to let people see the real me. I tried ballet, took some life threatning risks,took a road trip, spoke what i really felt, tried new foods hehe, started playing guitar again, went to my 2nd concert ever, started teaching preschool, stayed up for 24 hours... and let go.
This year has been hell, however it has also been the most fun.

This has made me a better person, and all the crap that went on is now well worth it.

im ready for the rest.

$$

or



if all goes well ill be working at one of these places

gotta pay the bills