I don't know how to really start this, and im not in much of a mood to care too much. This year has been insane and I've truly underestimated the change that can take place within a year. You come to expect you will grasp some new concepts, maybe mature a bit, and most obviously, experience what many refer to it as 'a taste of the real world.' I didn't come to expect i would lose people in my life or come to a point where I don't need to depend on people for my source of happiness. It's hard to admit, but i wasn't okay with who i was. I relied on people to make me feel loved, or important. At the time it was working out okay, however there came a time when those people i 'counted' on were gone. I had to make myself happy, and believe i didnt need anyone (except for family :]) It was a harsh reality and as crazy as it sounds it took 6 months. I had my highs and lows but each day thankfully got better.I learned being alone is okay. God can be an amazing best friend, and Moms are the ultimate healers. I spent my time enjoying life, meeting tons of new people, opening up, and not being so afraid to let people see the real me. I tried ballet, took some life threatning risks,took a road trip, spoke what i really felt, tried new foods hehe, started playing guitar again, went to my 2nd concert ever, started teaching preschool, stayed up for 24 hours... and let go.
This year has been hell, however it has also been the most fun.
This has made me a better person, and all the crap that went on is now well worth it.
im ready for the rest.
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